Shikha's World

Internal Bleeding Wishing for someone to pamper me on my tough days,  motivating me and showing some rays. Giving me some words of faith and embracing my sensitive heart with grace.  I wonder how much effort it takes to make your loved one feel that way. Is it just me or is everyone is in this hurtful phase? Tears rolling down my cheeks and beyond. Heartache that goes deep within where it doesn’t respond. Why is this fluctuation of emotions deeply engraved in us? Feeling empty and disconnected is extremely rough, but why is it caused? 

                                          Tried... I tried too hard to get what i want, but the thing didn't want me. People say deal with it, I say I can't, let me just be me. Emotionally drained and mentally frustrated soul tells me to shut up. Kill me, kill me is what my mind always raps. As soon as I open my eyes, anxiety kicks me hard. its difficult to keep up with the day, which makes me sad. No pills, no meditation has been able to treat my pain, I scream and cry in the rain, yet no gain. No feelings are left inside me, everything is gone, I could only see darkness at night and no bright Sun.

People say love is selfless, but my definition of love is helpless they leave you, when their motive of being with you is completed they leave such scares behind, that could never fade "I will never leave you" was what once they said since then people like me started loving hatred. Flying high was what they taught us, before leaving their way of faking smile was totally deceiving Falling back with broken wings made me realize, that they do not have a heart, even of a pearl size. Why is love so much over rated? it keeps you unsatisfied and waited Those tenderness and warmth weren't real at all We begged, not to leave and even crawled. Since then the night was full of alcohol, where the body stopped functioning overall I have been waiting for my life to be short and small Sleepless night and wet eyes.. that's all